If you don't hear from me in a while

I haven’t written a post in a while and so I thought I’d write this one, just in case I don’t write another one for a long time. I only ever write when the ideas pop into my head, I don’t try and force them. If an idea’s meant to come it will happen, and I trust that if it doesn’t then it’s not meant to be.

Ever since I started following Christ, I’ve had book ideas, about four of them so far, and I’ll usually start them and abandon them, and was struggling to find the time when most of my time is spent writing articles because that’s how I actually get paid.

I started praying about it, and asking God for help, asking ‘‘if you really want me to write a book God, please help me as I just don’t know how I can fit writing for free into my life, with this cost of living crisis and feeling like I need to use every spare moment for paid work. And if I’m not meant to write a book, if there’s some sort of lesson in not having a big achievement and just living in the simplicity of the everyday then I understand, although it does hurt my heart to have all these ideas as if some are meant to be but they just don’t seem to be coming.’’

And I wonder if God’s leading me away from writing posts, as the ideas have dried up and I think I may have finally found the book idea that will stick and have been working on it for 30 mins each morning before starting my other work.

I also find myself being led to spend less time on facebook, less time stuck in a dopamine high of craving likes and notifications.

And one thing I also realised is that moving to Italy six months before the lockdown, and then being cut out of society for so long, that I never really got to properly start building a life in the ‘real world,’ and so now I’ve found myself meeting interesting local people to write articles for a local magazine, starting a parenting group and doing other stuff that just wasn’t possible when we needed a vaccine passport to go anywhere.

So God is making changes in how I’m doing things, and how I use my energy, and I have no idea what’s going to happen I’m just following along as I know he’s got the best path laid out through this crazy, fallen world.

So I just thought I’d write this post as I received a message the other day asking how I was as they hadn’t read any posts in a while. I love being connected to you all, so while there may not be any posts I am running a weekly prayer and fellowship group on Mondays at 1pm UK Time (send me a message to join), and I’m still active posting videos etc. on my Telegram channel.